Kate's been counting calories with me. Well, that's not true. Kate's been counting calories. I've been pretending to count calories. I need some accountability to myself, so I'm going to write it all down here. I'm not motivated to lose weight like I used to be - I have the love of the life, what more do I need? Except I don't love my body. It feels slugging, weak, and as if it's competing with itself. I don't feel as comfortable in my own skin as I used to - it feels foreign to me. But I find it so hard sometimes to do things for myself. But this I need to do for myself.
So, starting number is 206.2. I have a week until the end of the month. Here are my goals for the next week, from Thursday to Thursday:
- Lose a pound.
- Count calories every day this week. Do not stop on the weekend
- Count calories every evening, before I go to bed.
It sounds so hard to me. Every day, including the weekends? Staying accountable to myself? I know if I can do it this week, I can do it next week and the week after. If I can do it today, I can do it tomorrow, and the day after. I can do this, right?