I'm going to skip my weekly weigh-in this week. I never do this, but I'm simply too embarrassed/in disbelief over the weight I saw this morning. I'll let you know next week where I stand.
In the meantime, my embarrassment has proven to be an effective motivating tool. I have planned out my week and seem to be on the right track. I am trying to stay motivated, but it's hard when I'm starting to feel like I have a "normal" body. But I'm not yet in the healthy range, and I'm still not thrilled with how my body looks. I know it's unusual, but I like my body more when I'm standing naked in front of my mirror in the morning than I do after all the layers of clothes I put on. Those curves are proof of all my hard work, and that gets hidden under the shirts and pant.
But sometimes I need a reminder that I'm not yet done with this work. I yearn for a day when my legs don't rub, and I don't need to wear tights or leggings to make a dress comfortable. I want to be able to be a healthy weight. I want to be HOT, not just beautiful. This can only be attained if I watch what I eat. I CAN DO IT!!! IT REALLY IS WHAT I WANT!!!